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Disclaimer : No worries, no comments of superstar will be penned for I know I will get irritated again and also I simply do not wish to jump into the same bandwangon like everyone else. Whatever it is, I am 100% satisfied with the results BUT is not like I CARE too. Unless either one of them wanna bribe me with money hahahaha ….

I had a fanstatic night today. I havent been smiling and laughing that heartily ever since my boy left for NY. Work had been pretty stressful and if not for those lovely angels, I would not have picked myself up.

Thanks to their encouragement and I no longer feel like dirt. I no longer feel I was the worst, in fact and a matter of truth there were people who did worse. I learnt I should take things step by step, I was being my typical self of an over-driven and overly ambitious Arien. If our life is already full of ups and downs, how can sales ever be ups forever. I was so ignorant. This is my first attempt in a sales oriented environment and I allowed my emotions to take over me completely. I have far too high expectations and was too full of myself. I need to learn how to crawl before I learn to walk and learn to set pratical goals. I shant push myself that hard anymore.

Now that last month had ended with a start of a new month, I gonna take things in a more positive manner. Jil is so right, THIS IS JUST A JOB, IT AINT MY LIFE. Why do I have to take it so hard? Why do I have to blame myself when I clearly understood I TRIED MY VERY BEST. In contrast, I aint going to just let it go that easily and allow my ego to be bruised so badly. I am going to take another shot or even multiple shots to make sure I succeed. Even if the figures do not meet what I was expecting, as long as I give it all up to my very best, I shant look back EVER again. I lost the game of figures but I am sure my morales won everything over. I should learn how to appreciate my own effort and be proud of myself. Life shouldnt be just focusing on our errors and neglecting our worthy moments.

I had been lucky, lucky for a fact I have confidantes I can lean on. Is definitely better than being all alone by my own. Today was a blast, we put work behind us and spent a splendid night. I am really happy! I laughed a lot, I giggled, I was really beaming with happiness. I had such fun with the zhuan zhuan machines, but I wasnt lucky to get xiao ding dang. I got xiao ding ling again with da xiong and one of xiao ding dang lookalike. Angelalalala was lucky though, she had her first ever virgin try with that machine and she scored a ding dang! UNFAIR! Jil had her greenie froggie and I spent the most money but ended up with nothing. Jil rewarded me with a minnie mouse, damn cute!~

Somehow I can relate life to that machine. You put in the money, EFFORT as in life, and hoping to get a good surprise. Is random and no-one can predict what comes out of the hole. Like the machine, life aint a smooth ride, shit often happens ,which explains why I havent been able to have ding dang yet. I aint gonna give up and I know one day ding dang will come to me. SEE! I learnt something from the zhuan zhuan machine! Is not just wasting money haha! I gonna make sure one day the whole family of xiao ding dang will be reunited!

I miss my boy. He will be back soon and I know that a wonderful week is gonna approach me with warming hugs. Life is beautiful and it will be….. for I have wonderful friends around me and the best boy no-one can replace!!!

I truly enjoyed myself today. AND I still loved my job! ~ ~ ~

I am addicted! ~ (That machine absorbs lotsa monie!!!)

Not what I wanted initially as I wanted only ding dang but I changed my mind and I gonna complete the full set like how I gonna complete my life. Live it to the fullest! (Ya ya ya .. I will add some colouring to the ugly locks soon! I am just as irritated!)

I luv these gals! They are awesome! ~

I AM STILL PRETTY MUCH A KID AND THIS KID GONNA LIVE HER LIFE AS HAPPILY AS SHE CAN! : )



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